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And in a moment, everything changes.

June 30, 2009

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There was no clue last night that would have led me to believe when I awoke this morning, life would be changed, and the changes made would be irrevocable. There was no little voice in my head saying “Be careful tomorrow, something big is going to happen” or “Get some rest because you will need […]

uuuuuugggggghhhhhhh

June 28, 2009

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I am so not ready to go out. Not on a date, not to a club, not on a train or a plane or even in an automobile. I do not want to relapse, on drugs, drink or dick, none of the D’s and tonight, if any, would be the night. So I am locking […]

Blep

June 28, 2009

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Didn’t write last night, fell asleep with half baked cradled in my arms, woke up to a glorious sticky mess and totally different from the sticky mess I’m used to waking up with. In desperate need of coconut cakes and coffee, this is another iPhone update, life in progress, a motion picture of sorts. Not […]

WHAHOOOOOOOOOOOO

June 26, 2009

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I was heading to lunch to meet my boy Dee Hustle at this hotspot off West Sunset. I’ve never been there, didn’t know what I was looking for. Saw two big burly black guys outside the address and called Dee confused. “I don’t know, this doesn’t look like the right place….” Dee calls his boy […]

Subject Matter

June 26, 2009

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Again, another evening where I don’t feel like writing. Where I feel as though I have nothing to put down on the page, no coherent thoughts powerful enough to manifest into grammatically structured sentences, flowing with ease and strength. I feel as though I’ve nothing to contribute to the world today. And this is a […]

Still awake…..

June 25, 2009

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11:25pm and still awake. Had coffee too late with JJ, right before we went on a walk through the canyons. I made her go all the way to the top, up baby bear and then down the steep ridge line, papa bear, and we fly like billy goats, like low saucers, while Saucy bombed the […]

And now, it’s time for the breakdown

June 23, 2009

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Never gonna get it never gonna get it never gonna get it wha whoa whoa whoaaaaaaa Nothing day today. Nothing big, nothing terribly exciting, nothing groundbreaking. Some crucial realizations in matters regarding the relationship with my mother, but other than that, nothing that would make me turn my head, or blink twice. Except a letter […]

Starting over at night

June 22, 2009

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Today was interesting, to say the least. A couple things happened that are incredibly positive and healthy, and a couple things that are negative and icky. But I suppose that is the point of being alive, and experiencing feelings, to have the ups and downs. I just keep forgetting that this roller coaster can be […]

Let’s Go Oakland….

June 21, 2009

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In a sea of Red or Blue caps, thousands of Angels and Dodgers fans adorned in jerseys, an entire stadium filled with Red White and Blue, I managed to stand out like a sore thumb. Could be because I’m wearing green and yellow, my team colors, yes I know we are out but I don’t […]

Staying in the moment

June 20, 2009

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Started off the day borrowing coffee from the neighbor, I’ve run out and thankfully it’s time to re-up on my favorite blend. Also, thankfully, the neighbor didn’t mind sparing a pot for me this morning and so I woke with my usual three cups and started painting right away. I’ve been feeling inspired. Part of […]

Imagine all the People

June 19, 2009

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The most wondrous thing happened tonight when I opened my windows. The sound of crickets, people laughing, and music came bursting into my home, my low lit living room, filling from floor to ceiling, piano, guitar, words on the tip of my tongue, moving me to write, to create, to stay awake all night wallowing […]

Isn’t that cute, he thinks I’m a whore!

June 19, 2009

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Beautiful day, walking, writing, driving to Jilly Beans and having her still in a meeting unavailable for my session. This is not a problem, not really in the mood to be fixed right now. ……..8 hours later……. I had to sit on this thought. The desire to be fixed. This isn’t a reasonable request is […]

California Sage

June 17, 2009

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A beautiful morning, starting off with a stroll on the beach with Saucerton, actually a rollerblade, with her pulling me along for the first 20 minutes and then finally tiring to a slow trot, leisurely, so we may both look at the ocean. The nice thing about the crashing waves is the recession back into […]

Feel Free to Read, but No Comments Please

June 16, 2009

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I realized I’ve been getting a little high off the comments left on my page here, so please refrain from commenting. If you enjoy reading that is support enough for me. I appreciate the good and the bad, but neither are healthy for me at this moment in time. Thank you.

Just a Day

June 16, 2009

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Today was very interesting, and I’ve had a whole barrage of thoughts to contend with, even though the sun has yet to set. I’ve decided to write now, at 5pm (instead of my usual 10pm entry) because I’m hitting the gym in a bit to run off some steam, and then it’s off to meet […]

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