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How sweet it is…

July 29, 2009

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Such interesting days, these free days, days free of camera crews and set things to do. Free of the ties that bind, and the batteries that die. I decided today that I no longer wish to be tied to anything, and that includes sex addiction, alcoholism, drug addiction, workaholism, and pretty much every other ism […]

And life begins….

July 28, 2009

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It’s wild to put your whole life on hold for three week time periods, to be followed by camera crews and sound people waiting for a mumbled word, or to wait for clearance from a diner so you can eat whilst being filmed. As a woman who has been in front of the camera for […]

I’m baaaaaaaaaack……

July 26, 2009

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“Sometimes the questions are complicated and the answers are simple” ~Dr. Seuss After three weeks staying at a sober house, I’ve come to realize more about myself than I could have ever hoped. The relationships I’ve built, destroyed, attempted to rebuild and then tossed out have been crucial in forming my current state of mind, […]

Dear Jennie

July 19, 2009

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Dear Jennie Good morning old friend, it’s been so long since I’ve been here, since I’ve shared my feelings in this open and honest place, so long since I’ve said “good morning” old friend. I’ve been doing well, living life on it’s terms and trying out emotions like happiness and frustration, excitement and helplessness just […]

Dear Jennie

July 19, 2009

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Dear Jennie Good morning old friend, it’s been so long since I’ve been here, since I’ve shared my feelings in this open and honest place, so long since I’ve said “good morning” old friend. I’ve been doing well, living life on it’s terms and trying out emotions like happiness and frustration, excitement and helplessness just […]

Intermission

July 8, 2009

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I’ve moved into a sober living house and things have become very different than living in my own. Especially because while on my own I’m not being followed by cameras constantly, and if I don’t give with people I can just leave. Fortunately I get on with everyone here and already have learned so much, […]

Memories of Independence

July 5, 2009

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How strange to not be hung over today. How interesting it is to have the collection of memories I do from yesterday, my first 4th sober. I’m incredibly pleased with the events of the day, from the uncomfortable and trying to the carefree and happy reunion time that this fine independence day proved to be, […]

Happy Birthday America

July 4, 2009

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This is the first time since childhood that I intend upon spending the 4th sober. Well, above and beyond sobriety, the first 4th I intend upon staying awake till the fireworks, not getting kicked out of bars, not making out with random chicks I had met in those bars, not losing my purse or shoes, […]

Wasted Time

July 3, 2009

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After a week of preparing, and thinking of plans and things to talk about, I found none of it important in what happened today. Or yesterday as the case may be, but still today as I haven’t gone to sleep yet. Yes, it is important that I know what I want to do, but I […]

A beautiful day for a burial

July 2, 2009

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Yesterday was not an easy day. I found it exhausting to get from bed to the kitchen for my morning coffee, in fact, I lay with Saucy snuggling an extra 45 minutes, crying over the loss of  The Big Dog, and grateful that I spent time with her and still have my sweet little dog. […]

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