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Be-com-ing | biˈkəmi ng | noun Philosophy – the process of coming to be something or of passing into a state.
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Winding Down
As we move forward in life and these years wind down, I find myself – perhaps typically – nostalgic and pensive about the present, past and future. The past year has been a roller coaster of life. Births and deaths, triumphs and well… non-triumphs. And all through it I am grateful to have remained sober. […]
Walking (In the Sunlight)
October 28, 2012
Today and this past week were particularly spectacular. I had the honor and pleasure of visiting my little brother, who is dealing with some very similar issues to my own, and the joy of reuniting with an old girl friend who is both sober and “retired.” One of those incredible weeks you begin to think […]
Dog Shit in the Kitchen
October 16, 2012
Sometimes I am selfish and go to sleep without letting Saucy out for a final pee or poo. Last night’s selfishness manifest itself into a giant dog shit in the kitchen, which inevitably leads back to me, to my failure to let her out and my selfishness in choosing to go to bed over choosing […]
Help Me Decide! Excerpt for Literary Death Match…
October 9, 2012
Just checking in to do a quick poll and get everyone’s input. I’m reading an excerpt from “I am Jennie” tonight in a Literary Death Match at Largo in Los Angeles (link provided below). I have seven minutes to WOW the judges and audience, and pummel my literary competitor into the ground. I have a […]
“And The Day Came…”
October 4, 2012
“And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom” - Anaïs Nin A day came, and the risk was to remain tight or blossom. What an interesting dichotomy. I’m sure I’ve written about this quote at some point in my blogging career, […]
Checking In
September 21, 2012
Mentally: Exhausted. Being sick is exhausting. Missing school, work and internship creates backlog of mental work regarding the needs-to-be-done pile. Reassessment to come next post. Physically: HA! Finally went to school and had energy to study. So I overdid it and am back home feeling like doodoo. *sheesh* Emotionally: Lots of feelings come up with […]
Fear and Finances: Change vs. Shifts
September 7, 2012
I’m currently in the middle of a new 4th step and am once again bewildered by the fears that have come up. The first time around, I wrote them out and many of them were so irrational that I had to let them go. Of course, many of those irrational fears still loom above my […]
Lighting up the Sky
August 31, 2012
“Even After All this time The Sun never says to the Earth, “You owe me.” Look what happens With a love like that, It lights the whole sky.” A quote by the Sufi poet, Hafiz, from a friend (many thanks for this day opener). The day began with a friend and a text message. Yesterday […]
Nick of Time
August 24, 2012
I was going to write a post about how I got out of the industry in the nick of time, but really, this recent syphilis outbreak is no different than any of the other things. Plenty of people work knowing (or at least suspecting) they will have dirty tests come the next round. There were […]
Would You Still Write?
August 20, 2012
“Have you ever thought about who you would be without the fame, the porn, the past? Would you still write? Maybe model with clothes on? Maybe be a UCLA student?” An incredible question from Bubbha the Texas Man, and an incredible prompt for the day and the end of summer. What would have happened had […]
Commitment
August 13, 2012
I need to make a solid commitment to and at this blog. Just like I bring the literature in one of my women’s meetings each week, it’s important that I begin updating this space regularly. Not simply because it is good to regularly update a regularly updated blog, but because I know this kind of […]
Add New
August 2, 2012
“If you bring out what is in you, what you bring out will save you. If you fail to bring out what is inside you, what you fail to bring out will destroy you.” from the Gnostic Gospel of St. Thomas via Brendan (many thanks for this…) The day begins with coffee and a swivel […]
Release the Kraken
July 12, 2012
The book released two days ago. I haven’t thrown up on a single person/thing or in a single inappropriate place. I haven’t even thrown up in an appropriate place. Stomach contents have stayed content. Wonderful feelings really. Absolutely wonderful. Wonderful feelings mixed with paralyzing fear, that melts back into surreal wondrousity. Yup. Made up a […]
December 28, 2012
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