Browsing All Posts filed under »Uncomfortable Days«

Walking (In the Sunlight)

October 28, 2012

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Today and this past week were particularly spectacular. I had the honor and pleasure of visiting my little brother, who is dealing with some very similar issues to my own, and the joy of reuniting with an old girl friend who is both sober and “retired.” One of those incredible weeks you begin to think […]

Sick Girl

September 17, 2012

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Sick sick sick. Ugh. So sick that I couldn’t muster the strength to write the Friday post, which induced shame for not fulfilling my commitments. Which incited guilt about “taking it easy” and “not pushing too hard,” which inspired exhaustion and led me to sleeping on the couch all day. Being a human is very […]

Lighting up the Sky

August 31, 2012

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“Even After All this time The Sun never says to the Earth, “You owe me.” Look what happens With a love like that, It lights the whole sky.” A quote by the Sufi poet, Hafiz, from a friend (many thanks for this day opener). The day began with a friend and a text message. Yesterday […]

An Adventure in Healing

April 12, 2012

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I have taken on the most incredible adventure. No, not recovery of the kind may think, but of a larger recovery, a bigger plan, something so big and so large that it keeps me up at night with the potential good that may come of it. I have decided to start a non-profit organization that […]

Statistics of Self-Caring

March 28, 2012

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I had myself a little mental breakdown last week, over pounds and milk and cows and the probability a Jersey cow will produce more than an Ayrshire cow. The breakdown wasn’t just for me though, because Mr. Man also had the pleasure of partaking in this completely statistically predictable meltdown. How often I forget that […]

Someone Must Change

September 14, 2011

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“When the wind blows, the grass bends.” -Confucius On January 5th, and 7th, I wrote blog posts about my neighbor, a seemingly crazy woman who slams doors in response to our movement about the house. Responses from my dear readers, insisting that I discontinue my door slamming experiment, coupled with the request of Mr. Man, […]

Biological, Physiological, Existential: Crisis

March 21, 2011

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I am currently in the middle of the last class I need to be get into UCLA, if  they are to accept me – I find out some time in April. The final class that I’m taking is a Biology class, and even though I’d already finished my life science units at San Diego State […]

Another Year Older

February 22, 2010

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I’ve been obsessed with the Mumford & Sons album “Sigh No More,” which is where the last post quotes lyrics from, and will explain why once again, I’m using song lyrics as I write. I can’t stop playing the album, it’s either Mumford and Sons or the new Sade album “Soldier of Love.” Today though, […]

Back into EMDR

February 16, 2010

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It’s been a minute since I’ve been here, I know. I’ve finished my book proposal, to the point where I can polish it and hopefully go to town pitching to publishers. It feels good to make this sort of progress, feels good to put my mind to something and do it. I’ve also started using […]

A Day of Avoidance…

December 19, 2009

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I spent the day doing things that kept my mind from other things. Things like drama and nonsense, anger and disappointment no longer serve the purpose they once served in my life. It used to be very easy to focus on those things, the intensity kept me distracted from my own issues. I find my […]

Decisions, Decisions, Decisions….

October 6, 2009

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I absolutely hate going to restaurants with oversized jumbotron menus. The kind of menu that is more like a novella, with pages and pages of options, things I love on each page mixed in with things I’ve never tried. I’m always overwhelmed at the thought of having to choose between all my favorite things, and […]

And this is why I don’t drink anymore….

August 29, 2009

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It’s funny how there will always be some hater that tries to bring you down. Someone who questions your integrity and capacity to be honest just because. I’m actually kind of grateful, because this is a very clear reason for me to continue not drinking. I turn into an icky, yucky, sloppy drunk girl when […]

Most Awkward Experience Ever Dot Com

August 22, 2009

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I am not one to step on toes, and tonight, its possible I accidently trampled some. Certainly not with any cruel intent, no malicious or mean spirited foot stomping, but tonight’s events lead me to believe that this may have not been the best decision ever. Sometimes, doing the right thing just isn’t the right […]

Subject Matter

June 26, 2009

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Again, another evening where I don’t feel like writing. Where I feel as though I have nothing to put down on the page, no coherent thoughts powerful enough to manifest into grammatically structured sentences, flowing with ease and strength. I feel as though I’ve nothing to contribute to the world today. And this is a […]

Still awake…..

June 25, 2009

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11:25pm and still awake. Had coffee too late with JJ, right before we went on a walk through the canyons. I made her go all the way to the top, up baby bear and then down the steep ridge line, papa bear, and we fly like billy goats, like low saucers, while Saucy bombed the […]

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