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5 Years

April 29, 2014

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Today marks the five year anniversary of my very first post on BecomingJennie. It’s hard to believe that five years have passed. It seems it’s just as difficult to know where to end as it was to know how to begin. I suppose, like anything, I simply should start at the beginning.   April 6th, […]

Winding Down

December 28, 2012

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As we move forward in life and these years wind down, I find myself – perhaps typically – nostalgic and pensive about the present, past and future. The past year has been a roller coaster of life. Births and deaths, triumphs and well… non-triumphs. And all through it I am grateful to have remained sober. […]

Missing and Action:

November 27, 2012

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Yes. I know. It has been quite some time since the last post. I have not fallen off the face of the earth, which I’ve heard is a physical impossibility, unless of course, I am circling in earth’s orbit, which means, of course, that I have — in fact — catapulted myself off of the […]

“And The Day Came…”

October 4, 2012

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“And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom” - Anaïs Nin A day came, and the risk was to remain tight or blossom. What an interesting dichotomy. I’m sure I’ve written about this quote at some point in my blogging career, […]

Checking In

September 21, 2012

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Mentally: Exhausted. Being sick is exhausting. Missing school, work and internship creates backlog of mental work regarding the needs-to-be-done pile. Reassessment to come next post. Physically: HA! Finally went to school and had energy to study. So I overdid it and am back home feeling like doodoo. *sheesh* Emotionally: Lots of feelings come up with […]

Fear and Finances: Change vs. Shifts

September 7, 2012

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I’m currently in the middle of a new 4th step and am once again bewildered by the fears that have come up. The first time around, I wrote them out and many of them were so irrational that I had to let them go. Of course, many of those irrational fears still loom above my […]

Lighting up the Sky

August 31, 2012

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“Even After All this time The Sun never says to the Earth, “You owe me.” Look what happens With a love like that, It lights the whole sky.” A quote by the Sufi poet, Hafiz, from a friend (many thanks for this day opener). The day began with a friend and a text message. Yesterday […]

Nick of Time

August 24, 2012

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I was going to write a post about how I got out of the industry in the nick of time, but really, this recent syphilis outbreak is no different than any of the other things. Plenty of people work knowing (or at least suspecting) they will have dirty tests come the next round. There were […]

Dark Roast and Finger Puppets

July 18, 2012

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New bag of coffee from Costco, the Kirkland Dark Roast to replace the Peet’s I so obnoxiously demanded we drink each morning. Turns out the stuff gets under my skin and makes my feet and fingers move just the same, and is about one-third the price. Constantly re-evaluating my financial choices, and knowing that I’ll […]

Nerves: The Watery Mouth, Wait, I’m Going to Barf, Feeling.

July 9, 2012

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Racked with nerves. Trying desperately to remain unattached. I am not going to read any reviews lest I may believe all of them. Bullshit. Already read one. It was good. Still don’t want to believe it because if that review is right then so are the ones that will say it is bad, which I’m […]

Book Cover: Unveiling?

May 14, 2012

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holy. shit. It’s all happening. (yaaaaaay!!!!)

An Adventure in Healing

April 12, 2012

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I have taken on the most incredible adventure. No, not recovery of the kind may think, but of a larger recovery, a bigger plan, something so big and so large that it keeps me up at night with the potential good that may come of it. I have decided to start a non-profit organization that […]

“Perfection Adjacent”

April 3, 2012

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Lawd. Have. Mercy. It’s over. Thank you Margieville, for the incredible and succinct description of my statistically insignificant completion. I don’t know if I’ve squeaked by with a B- (you brilliant thing you!) but I have most likely passed. And right now, that is all that matters. Never before have I  let those words escape […]

And Now, for Some Humanity

October 28, 2011

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After the last post, the post about the woman that can do everything, I quickly realized that you are all correct and it is not necessary to do everything. While I may have pretended to be wise, a sage of wordpress and knower of my own limitations, surely my humanity and my super addicty ways […]

Dealing with Disappointment

April 28, 2011

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About two weeks ago, I was sitting in Dr. Reef’s office talking about life. At one point in our short, thirty minute conversation, he said, “I’m really curious as to when something will go wrong for you. Because everything seems to go right.” Oh ho ho Dr. Reef, that statement assumes I believe things can […]

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