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In response to some comments…

December 18, 2009


Every day I read each and every comment that is posted on this blog. Each comment means something to me, whether it is someone relating their personal truth or story, or just offering a supporting ear. I turned the comments back on because I felt as if I would not get a high from the […]

Barrier Reef

December 16, 2009


Visited Dr. Reef again today for some fun filled brain picking. I’m really starting to enjoy the therapy sessions with him, and with Jill. The first part of my recovery, and seeing them, felt light and fluffy. I feel now that we are getting into the real work. Every time I leave his office I […]

Today, I did everything I love to do.

December 16, 2009


Today I did everything I love to do. I woke up early and drank coffee before 8. I took my notepad and pen down to the corner shop and wrote until my hand hurt, revising the proposal is taking time, and it’s time well spent. I saw B and my step dog Daisy. Went to […]

Together as One

December 15, 2009


I just came home from San Diego, another amends trip with another ex-boyfriend I magically disappeared on. Until I looked these men in the eye, I never really understood what vanishing on someone you love creates. This sense of unfinished business. Questions that beg to be answered. An open door, and someone standing beside it […]

Further into Yesterday

December 13, 2009


I’m so glad to have attended that lecture last night, it’s made me intoxicated at the thought of the writing process. To the point where I’ve spent a good majority of the day going through my proposal/first chapter with a knife, cutting words and sentences, thoughts that don’t go anywhere, seem wasteful. Writing is rewriting, […]

Notes From Stephen Elliott Lecture

December 12, 2009


Lost on W. Sunset Blvd. East LA with bakeries and Spanish delights I cannot enjoy due to the late hour. Searching for 826LA, no signs, only an address that leads to a travel store, a bookstore next door at 1716 but no 826LA. The guy in the book store says it is the travel store […]

Cleaning Gutters with Raindrops

December 11, 2009


The rain is falling outside my living room window, it’s open and I hear the drop drop droplets falling from the metal gutter to the ground below, landing in piles of mud or puddles or water, landing so close to me and I’m dry. It’s falling on the roof, through the trees, and soaking the […]