Browsing All Posts published on »January, 2010«

A Time for Rigorous Honesty

January 29, 2010


I’ve been hoping it wouldn’t come to this. That the obsessive compulsive behavior I’ve started participating in would just fade away over time, that I’d be able to stop what I’ve started doing and just relax. My hopes in talking about it here is that I put it out in the public and will be […]

Guess who’s little post made front page?

January 27, 2010

27 scroll down a bit… heheheheheh…. WHAHOOOOOOO!!!!!!

Various Updates

January 25, 2010


I’ve been working on my memoir for quite some time now, writing and rewriting, trying to polish the three of four chapters I need to submit with the proposal, and while I’m feeling good about certain parts, I have to admit I’ve taken on a huge task in what I plan to do with the […]

The Insider

January 21, 2010


It’s 6:45am and I’m heading to the CBS studios to do a bit for The Insider on sex rehab and Tiger Woods. What a delicate subject, one to be handled with such care because as of now his participation in the rehab program is simply a rumor, he’s been “spotted” in Mississippi, being one […]

More rain, and a little more work

January 20, 2010


The city of Los Angeles is covered in dark clouds and rain continuously falls from the heavens down through our smoggy skies and to the dusty ground, cleaning this city of memories of cars and people and life as we know it. Southern California is not built for rain, or any weather aside from sunshine, […]

A Rainy Day in LA

January 19, 2010


I love when the rain comes to Los Angeles. For minutes, hours of we are lucky, the eternal sunshine of our very spotted minds blurs into a dreary and wet downpour, the sky is falling chicken little, the sky is falling. Freeways become a mangled mess of metal, people stay inside, umbrella’s with cobwebs come […]

A sign of the times

January 17, 2010


I went out last night with my guy and a few of his friends who are visiting from Chicago, we went to Nokia to see Peewee, we hit the Fig and then went over to Coles downtown, so they could hit last call and I could work on my intake of Shirley temples. I woke […]


January 15, 2010


I haven’t finished a thing since I started my life, I don’t feel much like starting now. Walking now lonely has worked like a charm I’m the only one I have to let down. The past 36 hours have been a roller coaster of emotions. The helplessness I felt in dealing with the bank isn’t […]

Trying to Keep my Cool

January 13, 2010


Ever since the whole fraud thing started I’ve been trying my best to keep my cool. It will work out. My bank will protect me and refund my stolen money. I have nothing to worry about. Apparently, after a 45 minute conversation with a man named Jose Cruz, who is a claims manager for Chase, […]

The Last Hurrah

January 12, 2010


I’m back, safe and sound. No need to worry, no need for concern. Well, there was a brief moment of concern when I first arrived at the airport in Vegas, but by the end of the trip, with my sobriety intact, not only was I glad I came, I am glad to be home and […]

Ready for Vegas?

January 8, 2010


“Some say that as we grow up, we become different people at different ages, but I don’t believe this. I think we remain the same throughout, merely passing in these years from one room, to another, but always in the same house. If we unlock the rooms, we can look in and see ourselves beginning […]

Love Winter LA

January 7, 2010


As the rest of the nation sits beneath a blanket of white fluff, I stand outside in shorts, drinking my morning coffee and smoking a cigarette. I’ve been on the west side since Tuesday night, stayed out here to hit therapy with Jill today so I’m close, and listening to the birds and little LA […]

Painting and Cooking

January 5, 2010


A lovely day devoted to spending in my home, my Hollywood home with helicopters and sirens buzzing around me constantly, reminding me that while I paint and smoke, or write and drink coffee, life is happening outside, sometimes fast, sometimes slow, but it is always happening. No matter what I am doing. Today I spent […]

A Day From Hell…and still…

January 5, 2010


Today started well. My first official day without the car, with commitments and things to do, places to be and people to see. My first adventure was a trip to Dr Reef, in Beverly Hills, and well… perhaps I should start at the beginning. I dropped off my rent check last night, divided into two […]

And Finally, a Breath

January 4, 2010


So often I go throughout my day forgetting to breathe. I either forget that I am breathing, or forget to breathe entirely, find myself holding the air in as moments tick by, it escapes in a loud whooooosssssh, and it isn’t until that second where I think “I’ve been holding my breath.” Today, I realized […]