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Spring Cleaning

March 31, 2010


And so it begins. The massive overhaul of my home, my first time moving out of an apartment sober. Perhaps I should start at the beginning. I just handed in my 30 day notice to my manager in Hollywood. When I left rehab, and fled the San Fernando Valley, I did so raw and exposed, […]

Preparing for Grief…

March 30, 2010


As I approach the anniversary of that first day, the first day without booze, the first day without weed, or sex, or anything to numb, I can’t help but feel excited and anticipatory of the grief to come with another first. The first day without cigarettes. April 6th, 2010, my one year sobriety/goodbye porn birthday, […]

Feelings and Harvard

March 24, 2010


When I came to campus Monday evening, the air was kissed with privileged raindrops and I immediately felt less than. Less than my courteous guide, who kindly gave me a tour of Lampoon, less than the 18-22 year old kids who ruined priceless works of art in the castle in the name of humor (which […]

LAX Miracle

March 22, 2010


I arrived at Los Angeles International with plenty of time. An hour an a half before my flight, seucirty seemed non-threatening, and even though I stood in the wrong line twice (first the line to check luggage if you’re already checked in and then group check in), made it to the proper line and had […]

Blog Boundaries

March 19, 2010


Because I have chosen to keep the comment portion of this site open, it is inevitable that some crazies will wander in and spout off their own issues in an attempt to get a rise or reaction from me. I’d like to create some boundaries for this site, as the more traffic it seems to […]

Return to LA

March 18, 2010


After filming the view yesterday, Jenn G and I hit Juniors (my beloved cheesecake producer and giver of all things great and cheesy) and then JFK. We watched New Moon together on the plane, each on our separate little seat televisions, we pressed play at the same time, and then after a long discussion of […]


March 17, 2010


I flew out to NYC yesterday, LAX was a mess. People grumbling about the two hour wait in security, very few smiles aside from my own, a woman arrested in front of a ten mile line to reach the gates. I gave a play by play on Twitter and even though I had to pee, […]

Day of the Love Duck

March 11, 2010


This morning, I stuck with my decision to be happy throughout the day, I spoke with Deezy and told him I’d made a decision and he said it was a great idea. I told him he could do the same and he said “ehh…maybe in a bit.” Sometimes he is grumpy in the morning, but […]

Day of the Cunty Love Duck

March 10, 2010


After writing my post yesterday, I sat in my bed, half lotus, with hands resting gently on my knees. Palms to the sky. I asked for my tendency to focus on the negative when I’m surrounded by so much positive to be removed, I pleaded with something greater than myself to take away the desire […]

And So It Begins…Again…

March 9, 2010


Not like anything is really beginning, or has ended, or any of this will change any of the things I’ve committed to doing, but the new season of Sober House is posted up on, and it kicks off the follow up show to Sex Rehab. I filmed Sober House back in July, entered into […]

A New Page

March 3, 2010


I woke up this morning and felt inspired. Inspired with life, with love, with the changes that are possible if I put in the work. I sat down and read the many comments on my previous post, and decided I needed to do something to move this whole party forward. I started looking at colleges, […]

Writing is Re-writing

March 3, 2010


I’ve been working on this proposal for a bit now, had finished the 25 pages I’m submitting as the general proposal before Christmas, and the first version of the four chapters I’d like to include. After receiving notes from my agent about two weeks ago, I hit the page again, with my pen and delete […]