I’ve had this blog running for over a year now, and very rarely missed a week where I posted. It has been a cathartic and humbling experience for me, it has helped me remain focused while motivating me to pursue things beyond my wildest dreams. But right now, with all this “moving forward with my life” stuff going on, I think it’s time to give it a rest here, and focus on the proposal and book. School starts in less than two months, and by that time I want to be finished shopping with publishers, I want to be steady in terms of where this all stands.
I spent the weekend with my family, and it felt right. Spent the weekend off twitter, away from the internet, focusing on the things I need to focus on~ the things I’ve been saying I’m going to do and then failing to do because I’m so scattered between this and that and nonsense and sense. So it’s time for me to sit down and commit to writing this thing. I have a rough outline, but the finer details need work, the smoothing, the intricate little pieces which will make it a comprehensive and worthwhile proposal need my undivided attention. So as a commitment to myself, my recovery and my intentions in this new life, it’s time to get done what needs to be done. Time for the footwork. I’m going to update my HuffPo pieces, and write my proposal. I’m going to write. I’m going to leave this city of angels and throw myself, temporarily into the great unknown. Maybe wander the streets of San Francisco or New York, get lost on public transportation and drink coffee with people I don’t know. Perhaps, if I can scrape the money together, I will return to Europe, and find my way there…. I write best when I’m out in the world. Time to get lost for a little bit.
“If you have put castles in the air, your work need not be lost; that is where they should be. Now put the foundations under them.”
– Henry David Thoreau
Becoming Jennie 
JonnyJesusseed
May 10, 2010
LOL. Good luck as you roll forward. Don’t say”so long”, just “see ya later”. We’ll wait.
Fare the well!!!
ncmikey
May 10, 2010
Good luck Jennie …. what about Mr. Man?
Sarah
May 10, 2010
Sounds like a good plan. All the best.
Jacob C
May 10, 2010
You really get mauled with the amount of negative thinking on here. Maybe it’s best you take a break. Just be careful not to lose yourself.
Stephers
May 10, 2010
I haven’t been reading for very long, but in that short time, I have taken away many, many things that have inspired and encouraged me in my own recovery processes. I hope that your absence is brief, and you accomplish everything that you are setting out to do. I will look forward to your book, and would be totally chuffed if I could meet you to sign it.
Stephen
May 10, 2010
good luck J…..looking forward to the book 🙂
Ann
May 10, 2010
You will be missed. Came across a piece you might enjoy at Caring.com – 5 things not to say to someone who is trying to quit smoking. I would like to add to the list with:
#6 Do you want a cigarette?
It is just rude.
#7 Dont quit the government needs the
money from taxes to pay for childrens healthcare.Perhaps adding a CRV to wine bottles would do the same, especially here in California.
#8 Those pants make you look fat.
Once again you are being rude.
print these and pass them around accordingly.
warm regards
Ann xoxox
firstverb
May 10, 2010
Miss Jennifer,
I am happy for you. I am sad for me, but happy for you. You have been a light, an inspiration, a reason. Thank you for allowing me to follow you on this journey. Thank you for sharing your past, your present and your dreams of the future. You are potential, you can be anything, and do anything you set your mind to. I hope as you go where you go, that the people up meet will be good, honest, and positive. And that they will treat you as the lady you are. I hope the words that flow from your hand come easily and painlessly. Also I hope those words will bring you smiles of satisfaction, and that when you are ready to show them to the world, that your words will find their audience. Miss Jennifer, I don’t agree with you on many of your personal beliefs. And if I were to know you as a person I doubt we would be friends. Yet, your recovery, this good that you have done, this positive impact that you have had, is something I believe in. Stay on plan, stay on plan, stay on plan. You can keep all the demons at bay, you are strong and you can stay on your recovery plan. I hope that you do find the end of your journey to become Jennie someday, and that as that journey ends another will begin. If ever you start a new blog or restart this one, I hope that you will send an invite to your past readers. I am happy for you. I am sad for me. Thank you.
Have a glorious day.
KBO
May 10, 2010
Good luck! I’ll miss reading about your journey.
david
May 10, 2010
as something of a lurker since celebrity rehab, I must admit that now that you are ‘moving on’, I shall honestly miss following your process-your sincerity genuinely touched me. With that said-and I hope this doesn’t sound trite, but its meant-I have to congratulate you on finding the substance to truly ‘become Jenny’
keep daubing, and every success on your new journey.
Kay
May 10, 2010
Thanks for sharing here this past year. It’s been one of my small handful of favorites to see has an update. Good luck with what’s next.
Kevin
May 10, 2010
Jennie,
I’m happy that you’re in a better place then you were a year ago. You’ve grown so much since then, and you have a lot to be proud of. Bettering yourself is where you need to devote your energy, and if doing that takes you to a different place, than more power to you.
You’re story has moved and inspired me through what has been the lowest part of my life. You’ve given me the courage to keep on keepin’ on. I will be forever grateful. You will be missed. There are so few things you expect of your life when your a kid. I wonder, did you have any idea that you would help and touch so many people like you do now?
I expect great things. Take care.
Kevin
Lisa
May 10, 2010
Dear Miss Jennie,
I’m so happy for you, but I feel like crying. It’s like a friend is going away for a long time and I don’t know when she will be coming back. Please come back when you finish your book. Maybe every month or 2 you could write us a little snippet of your adventures in school and in writing. I hope you will keep updating Twitter, so we know you are doing ok.
You’re such an inspiration to everyone. You inspired me to start writing again and I’ve met some really nice people while doing it.
You’re my hero and I’m going to miss reading you. I wish you and Mr. Man the happiest life together. I wish you many, many good friends. I wish you the ultimate success in everything you do.
Thank you very much and can’t wait to read your book!
Lisa
summer
May 10, 2010
it’s “being jennie” time. 🙂
MetalRabbit13
May 10, 2010
Jennie,
Although you will be missed, I think that if you feel that you’re splitting your focus, then you should take a break. My friend, who teaches art to kids in Seoul, and is also a painter, herself, is working on this gigantic oil painting. (Picture a 5’2″ woman standing on a ladder to reach the top portion of the canvas.) She told all her Facebook friends a while back that she was taking a break to concentrate on her students and her art. I know that the results of her renewed focus will be amazing as I’m sure yours will be as well.
Please let us know on the blog when we can read the completed work.
Blessings,
Amanda
Jim C
May 10, 2010
thanks for writing a cool blog. To quote a old movie, ” the best goodbyes are the shortest” Good Luck.
josue
May 10, 2010
i will miss you but i now you’ll be okay and you’ll doing good. good luck
hepkat
May 10, 2010
Good decision IMO. Good luck!
Tony
May 11, 2010
Jennie~
I wish you nothing but love and happiness and joy in your absence. Looking forward to “seeing” you soon!
wilton
May 11, 2010
Good Luck.All the best.
ishanks
May 11, 2010
Sounds very healthy, good luck Jennie. Fantastic to see a new chapter opening.
Jill
May 11, 2010
I will miss you. Hugs.
Rob
May 11, 2010
I always am perplexed by the wheel of life, and generally do not comment on anything, but this is something so unbelievable. That guote so par for the coarse. So much to do.
Traveling closer to NY was the best thing. Just drop everything and go.
Quitting smoking OK. Hmmm all the girls I know smoke. But where the heck am I now? Hmmm just busy in a new city, working hard to get things done.
But the quote. The quote, where the heck did that come from. ( wheels )
My wheels passed everything, as I travelled, hump, hump, hump went my over filled air tires across north america. They say there’s these funny marks on my back tires but I don’t know. Maybe it was the dark matter, at night sometimes you get lost.
Ah but here I am. So much to do. Artwork, legals, connections, proposals, schools to look into, more artwork, selling the old artwork ( dusty ) and making new. Bought some paint again, and I guess I should sign my artwork. Better late than never they say.
But I like what Jennie says. She’s on track. I even debate wether the period should end the sentence inside the bracket, or outside. So schooled, refinement, grumpy throwing shit would be something.
All the details. Just like……. It has to be done. All the details, however boring they are, it has to be done, in focus, and determined to leave a mark.
( That’s what we’ll do . )
Rob
May 11, 2010
quitting smoking is par too.
Scott...that one!
May 11, 2010
I’m glad for you Jennifer, you are alright, now go get lost in the world…learn to speak french and such! Thanks for helping free me as you free yourself!
Meg
May 11, 2010
I’ll miss reading your words. You have been truly inspiring. Good luck, Jennie. I can’t wait to read your book.
Caitlin
May 11, 2010
Good Luck Jenny! 🙂
I know you’ll have a fabulous adventure no matter what you do!
I’ve loved reading your blog and being inspired by your strength! I’m so happy for you that you’ve accomplished so much!
I hope that you will tell us about all your adventures someday! 🙂
p.s. If you’re ever in NY and want a friend, get at me! You seem super rad! 🙂
jeff1photo
May 11, 2010
Take care Jennie, and good luck with everything you plan to do in the future.
Meyhem
May 11, 2010
Go with God Jennie.
Luck and Prayers
Meyhem
Jay
May 11, 2010
You are doing some smart thinking and good decision making. I’ll be here when you get back. :-))
Steve
May 11, 2010
Jennie, it is my observation that you do well at what ever you put your hand to. Even in your old life as a porn star, you did well in that business. You rose above the crowd and stood out. How many can say that?
You will be successful at what ever you do, of that I have no doubt.
I’m going to miss this. Very much.
If you’re ever in Toronto, I’ll show you the sights.(you have my email and yes, I’m serious)
Finally, please accept this song as a gift, the lyrics remind me of your journey.
Goodbye for now Jennie. Thanks for the inspiration.
Steve (higher than high, lower than deep.)
BrianC
May 11, 2010
Good luck Jennie. You will be missed around these parts, but time away to focus on what is important can be freeing. I wish you the best.
And I want to say thanks. As someone in recovery for sex addiction, reading your blog is a resource to remind me I am not alone and an inspiration. The way you constantly put yourself and your recovery first is something I struggle with.
Thanks for your time here. I wish you the best!
L.C.
May 11, 2010
Dear Jennie
Glad to hear you will be concentrating more on yourself, friends and family. Your willingness to share yourself, your thoughts and tribulations has been a wonderful experience I wish I could have with people I actually know. While your journeys to a happy and productive life are anything but over (no ones are) the fact that you seem to get it makes your readers smile.
Two questions I have always had and maybe you can answer them in you book are, first. How come Christmas? That is how did you get to rehab and what made you realize you needed to change. And second how come you are still getting it day by day. Your first entry in this blog was a road map of sorts. So many post were; “this is where I am I need to be farther along the path to a meaningful and productive life”. How come “this vision” of where you wanted to be with yourself and others. So many people want that vision, to “get it to together” and just don’t. Something clicked with you. Do you have any idea what it was?
No fighting with your self about wanting old ways to be maintained. True you fought hard to get rid of the old ways but I never got the sense you ever felt a desire to go back to the way of living your life as before. How come? What a journey!
Good luck Kid, LC
Matt
May 11, 2010
“Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you have imagined!”
– Henry David Thoreau –
freckledk
May 11, 2010
As much I’ve enjoyed reading your blog and will miss you, it’s not about ME and what I want. So I wish you the very best and look forward to hearing more from you in the future. When you DO get published (because you most certainly will), can you please request that your publishers make your book Kindle-accessible? I’d love to have it downloaded onto mine the moment the book goes live.
Oh, and good luck with the no-smoking! I’m right there with you!
Susan
May 11, 2010
Maybe you could twitter your HuffPost links when they’re up…?
Team Jenny!
Thanks for sharing.
Sara_Dipity
May 11, 2010
Good for you! You’ll never be lost, just exploring =) If you’re ever in Brooklyn, NYC and want to roll the way we Brooklynites can only do, holla at your gurl. Trust me, we have so much other coolness going on other than Junior’s ;o) Be well, and spread those wings.
Diana D.
May 11, 2010
Good for you! I’ll look forward to reading your book, then.
TEB
May 11, 2010
All the best Jenny. Can’t wait for the book and good luck in school. Stay strong.
Erin
May 11, 2010
Can’t say I’m not disappointed, especially since I just started following your blog, but I hope you do well with your endeavors and I wish you luck!
JDW
May 11, 2010
Friends are the crowd behind you, fists pumping, eyes alight with an unfailing passion for your success.
Their voices cry out in unison: “GO!!!”
Become yourself.
lk
May 11, 2010
aww that sucks. you’re a wonderful writer and will go far. you also are a fantastic artist and have a beautiful smile. i wish you luck in your new life adventures. stay strong, positive, safe, and focused. chicago has a place too.
josue
May 11, 2010
i will miss you so much. you have inspired me to overcome my own struggles. have found this blog was the best it could have happened. when your book get published no matter how many pages, no matter i’m just learning english i’ll going to read it, no matter if i have to use a dictionary, encyclopedia o whatever.
good luck jennie i wish you the best
regards n hugs from carribean.
P.S i’ll miss the buttefly bandit 🙂
TheKid420
May 11, 2010
Bravo! I’m proud of you. This is the last step in your recovery Jennie, get away from everything.
I’ve went on journey’s like this in my life also at crossroad type times.
I love the idea of you going twitter dark, staying away from the blog, and walking through California finding out what’s out there. It’s the same thing Kane did in Kung Fu.
I’ll miss you love, I have greatly enjoyed debating with you on the things we disagree on, celebrating your achievements, and being on your side more times than not in the discussions you have brought forth.
Your a class act Jennie, The Kid always will stand with you. Good luck!
jason
May 11, 2010
Jennie, For me this was a short run. I learned of this place and now it’s gone inside of 2 months. Well you got a life to live, and I guess this place and all the time you spend here is interrupting it. Well I made it over the weekend and still smoke free. Your ears had to have been burning at times as bad as I’ve cussed you and this freaking need to smoke. With out the smokes I don’t take as many breaks at work so I get more done. SO I guess that is another good thing about not smoking. Some of the guys say you doing this so you can get back to making money your old way. I think maybe you doing this so you and your man can have a life. I hope I’m right. All the energy you have put into getting away, and getting clean and sober and a fresh safe life. Well I am gonna miss reading your words. I wish for you a happy life. I will stay off the smokes and hope you do to. So I guess if I am gonna do this, this is the last chance I will get to do this, so I better get it all out now right. Well I saw the lyrics to this song and thought of you and what you called the smokes and all the other stuff. I tried listening to the music and it’s not really what I like, but the words are where the message is at. Get that man of yours to give you a big hug from me and my family. You will be in our prayers. Now go and have a great life.
HENRY ROLLINS BAND, LIAR
You think you’re gonna to live your life alone In darkness And seclusion
Yeah I know You’ve been out there Tried to mix with those animals
And it just left you full of humiliated confusion
So you stagger back home And wait for nothing
But the solitary refinement of your room spits you back out onto the street
And now you’re desperate
And in need of human contact
And then You meet me
And you whole world changes
Because everything I say is everything you’ve ever wanted to hear
So you drop all your defenses and you drop all your fears
And you trust me completely
I’m perfect In every way
Cause I make you feel so strong and so powerful inside
You feel so lucky
But your ego obscures reality
And you never bother to wonder why Things are going so well
You wanna know why?
Cause I’m a liar
Yeah I’m a liar
I’ll tear your mind out
I’ll burn your soul
I’ll turn you into me
I’ll turn you into me
Cause I’m a liar, a liar
A liar, a liar
I’ll hide behind a smile And understanding eyes
And I’ll tell you things that you already know
So you can say I really identify with you, so much
And all the time that you’re needing me
Is just the time that I’m bleeding you
Don’t you get it yet?
I’ll come to you like an affliction
And I’ll leave you like an addiction
You’ll never forget me
You wanna know why?
Cause I’m a liar
Yeah I’m a liar
I’ll rip your mind out
I’ll burn your soul
I’ll turn you into me
I’ll turn you into me
Cause I’m a liar, a liar
Liar, liar, liar, liar
I don’t know why I feel the need to lie And cause you so much pain
Maybe it’s something inside Maybe it’s something I can’t explain
Cause all I do Is mess you up and lie to you
I’m a liar
Oh, I am a liar
If you’ll give me one more chance I swear that I will never lie to you again
Because now I see the destructive power of a lie
They’re stronger than truth I can’t believe I ever hurt you
I swear I will never to you lie again, please
Just give me one more chance I will never lie to you again
I swear That I will never tell a lie I will never tell a lie
No, no Ha ha ha ha ha hah haa haa haa haaa
Sucker Sucker! Oh, sucker I am a liar
Yeah, I am a liar Yeah I like it I feel good
Ohh I am a liar
Yeah I lie I lie I lie Oh, I lie Oh I lie I lie
Yeah Ohhh I’m a liar I lie
Yeah I like it I feel good
I’ll lie again And again I’ll lie again and again
And I’ll keep lying I promise
Invisible Mikey
May 11, 2010
I think you’re ready for the next level, too.
See you at your book-signing in Seattle.
I’ve enjoyed reading all the tales of your becoming (once again) who you were at the start.
Thanks for kick-starting me back into writing.
Eric
May 11, 2010
Good Luck Jennie! But what about Mr. Man and all that talk about being close with family? Yet you are gonna leave all those people now? Just wandering no pun intended…
XaTooK
May 11, 2010
Good choice Jennie !!!
Change again your life, experimentation of new life… you will always surprise me.
Take care and find the way of wisdom… 🙂
“Que tes inspirations te portes
au-delà de tes espérances”
Xa
Karen
May 11, 2010
Good luck Jennie. Although for my own selfish reasons I will miss reading your blog, I am so glad that you are making this decision because it if for yourself! So congrats. As for myself, I only discovered your blog a few months ago so I’ve got many old posts to read and give me inspiration! I’m looking forward to your book and am just so happy for you and all the progress that you’ve made. It is one of the hardest things to do in the world is to do things for yourself so bravo to that. Take care!
B
May 11, 2010
Oh Jennie,
So easily you leave us, gasping in a vacuum of need…mourning and weeping in this valley of tears! Next, you’ll be wanting the serenity of a private life. Leaving us to ponder what you’ve really become. Waking in the wee hours, a startled wondering…Is Jennie alright?
Harrumph! Now I’ll have to get on with my own life, boxing with the shadows of your strength and perseverance!
Well…that’s deep subject…Thank you and well done. time to drink deeply of those healing waters.
For some reason this silly song came to me after reading this post. Where do these things come from? Let me invite your curiosity…
Well Being, Happiness & Much Love!
alexandra
May 11, 2010
I am so sad, you have become part of my daily life. I am going to miss reading you.
Good luck Jennie.
jason
May 11, 2010
Nice Thoreau quote. Here’s one along similar lines from Nikos Kazantakis. The speaker is Odysseus.
Good luck.
“…with a cuckoo’s cry and a flame’s flickering tongue,
with the empty hollow wind-toys of the playful mind
I shape my tall dream castles swiftly in my head.
That day will come when my thin shadow will turn to meat,
my inner flames to outer stone, when my mind’s visions
will swoop to earth down from my head’s tall hidden peaks.
See, I strike stone, grab earth, and seize your arm—
just as my fists have filled now, so one day, I swear,
I’ll build my tall dream city with stones, beams, and gods.
This is how cities are first planted in firm ground!”
mr turner
May 11, 2010
just started reading these blogs at the beginning of the year, but ive seen you on TV and whatever for a while now. i relate to a lot of the things you type down, and i’ll miss reading these bi-weekly or whatever. hopefully this isnt your last post, but if it is so be it.
i guess it’s time to branch out and complete the process of “becoming jennie”. good luck 🙂 i wish you nothing but the best!
JuanLoco
May 11, 2010
The Road. The Unknown. Where will it lead?
I spent the last half of April wandering the East Coast. From DC to Boston, no definate plans, but hit all points in between. Greatest trip ever. Enough tales to fill a book.
The unknown, the road, no map, no destination…produces so much stimulation in terms of awareness and imagination, I think it’s the perfect drug for you. Perfect vibrator too. Ha
Have fun out there. Holla if the road leads to Vail, CO. Aka Heaven. I finally made it, cuz I did my time in hell.
J
May 11, 2010
Jennie,
Good luck in your journey. If you travel through Chicago bring a jacket with you. One never knows how the weather can change in a 24 hour day. Stay sober and keep it ‘one day at a time’. Your fans will be here when you are ready to return.
My best to you and much love!
J
Mike
May 11, 2010
You must go where your path leads you. I will miss your posts. Until we hear from you again, stay safe and stay strong.
Blue
May 11, 2010
It’s always nice to get lost and not be found. hopefully you find piece so you can return and get on with what life has instore.
tom
May 11, 2010
wishing you well
tom
May 11, 2010
You know… this is how you feel today. if in a few days you feel differently, come back and write more. if it is in a week – a month – or whatever, you can change your mind at any time. that is your right.
Paul C.
May 11, 2010
Jennie —
Wherever you go,
go with grace, as an example to others of how to live life,
go with hope, as an example to others of what they can become,
go with God, whatever you perceive God to be,
feel all you can feel with a newly reawakened heart,
experience all you can experience with newly restored innocence,
and see all you can see with newly rediscovered child’s eyes.
And when you come back to tell us about it,
— and you will, I have no doubt about that; it’s part of who you are —
we’ll be here to listen,
as we’ve always been.
All the best, Jennie. All the best.
Kayla
May 11, 2010
Jennie,
I hope you return to see the comments on this page. Although, I probably wouldn’t. Well, I wish you the best of luck. You’ve helped a lot of people with you’re honesty and openness. I know you will continue to embrace people and help others to reach out for help with their problems. You will go far.
Ocean
May 12, 2010
Now that My barn has burned down, I can see the Moon.
Hart peace sol to you!
Rob
May 12, 2010
I feel so right about changing, because Jennie does, and that’s really important. It’s fun…
knichole84
May 12, 2010
Jennie, I have great respect for you! Best of luck with your writing this summer and good luck with school in the fall. What kind of classes are you taking?
Have fun! I’ve always wanted to wander the streets of New York 🙂
Lance
May 12, 2010
Jennie, I guess part of me is sad that I wont be able to read of your exploits on a regular basis. That said you need to do what is right for you to get your book written and get you butt off to school. I have every reason to believe that you will be successful in school, writing your book and everything that comes after that.
A rare blog entry from time to time would be pretty cool. Enjoy life and continue your quest to become Jennie, we love you.
bphope
May 12, 2010
Looking forward to a masterpiece of a book. Would love to contribute anonymous for you to get the best inspiration possible, Nothing like sitting in a park or coffee shop in Paris to get the creative juices flowing. It’s no shame, I am lucky to have a comfortable life as far as cash is concerned, poverty is however upstairs in the head. Suggest you open a Paypal account and that we get a “Fund” going.
Hellbob
May 12, 2010
We don’t need excuses for you to live your life the way you want to. Godspeed! Wait, gravityspeed for you? I don’t know. Be well, and I hope you come back soon.
~KatieGirl~
May 12, 2010
Oh Jennie, you will be missed!!
i enjoyed keeping up with your life (our journeys are so similar, yet so different) – i consider you a friend in my head!
Keep up the good work and don’t forget to keep us updated when the important stuff happens. Lots of Love and Luck!
don ruscoe
May 12, 2010
Jennie,believe me it all sounds great in the grand sceam of things,remember our mind is our greatest enemy,what you have been doing the blogging,believe it or not has been your foundation.The book will always be there,If the people who want you to write the book arent willing to wait fuck em.I know you probably wont read this ,but I really hope you do.If you end uo in Boston,please drop a line I would love to have a cup of coffee with you.One recovering addict to another.All the best Jennie…
Beautiful Mess
May 12, 2010
All my best to you and yours. Keep on keeping on Jennie 🙂
Lane
May 12, 2010
I am so proud of you. We will be waiting here for you and your book. Truly, I wish you great luck in this.
tomfrom michigan
May 12, 2010
So long cutie
Dennis
May 12, 2010
I’m going to miss your blog as I found it late. For what it’s worth I think I can say were all proud of you. We all have learned a thing or two about ourselves though you. Stay focused and good luck…
Lance
May 12, 2010
Jennie if there is one thing you have learned from writing this blog is that you are not alone. Through your reality show appearances and following the comments to your blog posts you have found that while you have had feelings of not being worthy of love or caring in the past there are people who while they are not part of your everyday life they do care what happens to you, I know I do.
Work on writing a great book and I will be waiting to buy it when it arrives at the local book store. And finish college, I think you would make a great therapist.
Sscott
May 12, 2010
Thank you so much for sharing your journey and good luck on your future endeavors!
Rob
May 12, 2010
With the wind in your hair, and a sparkle in your eyes, a little hop to your step…
They say when your going through hell, just keep going.
Rob
May 12, 2010
Funny you know, watching you say and talk about changing. (Really you know.) I geuss that’s why I thought to go as close to NY as I can, as far away as I thought I should from hell. Sittin in my ride, listening to NY radio. 420, coffee, smokin, racin my ride, babe, where’s my fucking passport.
Things left undone, for so long, you start to realize the drive when you take that leap right?
Rob
May 12, 2010
So you do art? I play really mean fucking guitar, and you’d love me doin that! And maybe when I sell some art I can buy some of your art. Well I’m not sure which school I am going to, but mean while…
Look for the pyramids. If you like color you’ll love mine…
So it’s all about money, and it’s the drive of NY. The empire of freedom.
Freedom/
Fuckin A
valerie
May 12, 2010
It’s been great reading you here, Jennie. You’re strength to change and grow has been inspiring. It will be cool to see you go on to do even more, bigger and better things. This is weird because I don’t *know* you, but I feel so proud of you for the kickass job you are doing! Change is so possible, and it’s cool to see it happening in you and myself. Thanks for sharing a bit of yourself and your story. I hope to read you elsewhere soon.
steve james
May 12, 2010
Jenny,
You absolutely rule, in many ways.
It’s kind of a strange feeling to share a bond with someone who you never had the pleasure of meeting, nor had the opportunity to talk to. There are many others who walk through life experiencing the same emotions you are feeling right now, you are so not alone in your pursuit to find what makes you feel whole.
Don’t worry about “finding your way”, many people become trapped in that cliche’. Just continue to do the things you are passionate about.. writing, painting, riding your bicycle, being outdoors and whatever else brings you joy… and “your way” will find you.
You seem like a very cool chick and a sweet person. I admire what I see in you through your words and through my perception of you on the celluloid box called TV.
It’s also cool that you put the adult biz behind you without shame and that you didn’t turn into a jesus freak in the process 😉
BTW, if you haven’t read Tom Robbins yet, at least consider one of his books- I think you would like his writing style..
peace,
steve
Pete Schult
May 12, 2010
I will miss your blog posts, but I look forward to buying your book.
–Pete
The Innkeeper
May 13, 2010
It has been great fun Jennie, thank-you for being a delightfully cathartic pit stop for me on the web for all these months.
Best of Luck!
narcissist's victim
May 13, 2010
You have been such an inspiration to me!!
I am really going to miss you and your heart here. You really showed me so many things and I needed you to show me how to put one foot in front of the other. I was always afraid to try until you!
mommydee
May 13, 2010
So sad for myself! I love reading your blog and hope once things settle that you’ll be back. Your writing and the journey you are on have been so inspiring.
Thank you for sharing it with us.
anonymous
May 13, 2010
bye and good luck!
D.Smith
May 13, 2010
Could be mistaken, but I believe I saw you riding your bike this afternoon (just to give you some anonymity on your whereabouts let’s just say near water). You looked super peaceful so I didn’t want to interrupt you but thought to myself…she’s going about this new phase of her life the right way. I went through a similar change in lifestyle about 10 years ago and see so many things mirrored in your blog and general attitude. There are good days and there are some tough days, but from an outside perspective – you looked like someone enjoying life. I had my little daughter on my back when you rode by and thought to myself, I wouldn’t mind at all if she grew up with the same good sense that I see in Jennie.
kgraham
May 13, 2010
Bravo! I have never commented before, but I have seen all the episodes and read all the blogs. You are inspiring. Thanks for making your journey public. It meant much too me and my struggle.
Erin
May 13, 2010
Good for you! I will miss you terribly. Your tweets are so fun. I wish you well and lots of love!!-Erin
Shawn
May 13, 2010
Come to Ohio…It is nice out here
Deb
May 13, 2010
This song is dedicated to you. I wish you the best on your travels, explorations, and accomplishments. May what you discover about humanity lead you to a deeper understanding of yourself, your purpose, the discovery of the joy you were made to give.
I hope you get a chance to listen to this. I know I’m only one of many sharing my best wishes with you.
Sayonara!
Zephyr
May 13, 2010
Be well.
rob
May 14, 2010
I will keep checking your site in hopes that you make it back occasionally. It’s hard to believe you won’t be back so I’ll just keep checking. All the best on your journey. Please do keep posting from time to time if you can. You’ve become a ray of light in alot of our lives.
Clint
May 14, 2010
I went to SF for a few days last spring. Very good for the whole creative mindset. I recommend having one of those cups of coffee up stairs at Vesuvio cafe and taking the night time tour of Alcatraz, great to see the bay as the sun sets
mae
May 15, 2010
I found this when I was reading “The Phantom Tollbooth” (I heart kids’ books)
“Alec drew a fine telescope from his shirt and handed it to Milo. “Carry this with you on your journey,” he said softly, “for there is much worth noticing that often escapes the eye. Through it you can see everything from the tender moss in a sidewalk crack to the glow of the farthest star–and, most important of all, you can see things as they really are, not just as they seem to be. It’s my gift to you.””
Giving you a virtual telescope for your journey 🙂
aaa
May 15, 2010
Hey Keep up what you are doing
good luck as you move on
hapiness is around the corner
rob
May 17, 2010
I miss you already 🙂
Chicky
May 17, 2010
Fare thee well, hope you won’t stay gone too long. Keep taking care of yourself and staying with your recovery. As always, you are in my prayers, for health, happiness, serenity, recovery and all good things. God bless!
Mike
May 17, 2010
Be careful out there. I’ve been to s-recovery meetings as well as AA meetings all over Europe, and kept my US sponsor while I lived there and talked to him. Not bragging, just saying it can be done. Did you know amsterdam is actually a cool place when you’re sober and not chasing sex? It was a whole different place than it was before recovery.
Michael Miller
May 17, 2010
Going to miss you Jennie.
Be bad(but not too much!), have fun(also, not too much), make money(is there any such thing as too much), and above all, only work with people you trust!
Andrew
May 18, 2010
Jennie,
Really admire your return to writing. It always feels great to write: whether using or sober. I know you visited Harvard not too long ago (a person I know was in the seminar you came in to speak to a while ago), but we would really love it if you came in to speak, maybe just in general, or certainly for the Advocate. Write us back! We miss you!
josue
May 18, 2010
i miss you
janet
May 18, 2010
Good luck to you Ms.Jennie!! I am so very much looking forward to your book, and I wish you nothing but the best, as I too, am in recovery, and I am just beginning my path to freedom.
rob
May 18, 2010
Your buttonsworksoso
rob
May 18, 2010
Ok, Ok, so I was saying something and now I forgot. Its not the same, but the same. It was about coffee and which city. Something about toronto. Something about different cities. It’s all good.
It’s the class of business. It’s the class of the flight. So who cares how much it fucking costs…
As long as it’s first class.
Jacob C
May 18, 2010
When you come back, I have a confession to make to you. I’m not going to tell it here, but I would like to tell you it. I don’t want to simply email you and have it lost in a sea of emails. I feel the need to tell you. When you come back, please let me know if/when you’re ready to hear it, and please don’t approve this message. Thank you.
Luke
May 19, 2010
Good Luck! I hope you will maybe come back in the future. Your making a good choice to get things done and go to school. School takes up lots of time. Peace.
Will
May 19, 2010
Goodbye. Good luck.
AB13
May 19, 2010
As you can see by all the responses and outpouring here, You, dear Jennifer Ketcham, have touched and inspired many. Most importantly, you have BECOME Jennie. Congratulations on continuing to build on the Jennie we have all grown to care about, cheer for, and be inspired by. I wish for you much success and happiness in your future endeavors. Be Happy.
Jeff
“Action and reaction, ebb and flow, trial and error, change – this is the rhythm of living. Out of our over-confidence, fear; out of our fear, clearer vision, fresh hope. And out of hope, progress”.
– Bruce Barton
Monica Girod
May 19, 2010
Best of luck to you. I will miss the regular and inspiring updates.
Brian Blueskye
May 20, 2010
You’re doing an awesome job. I think you’re really putting effort into where you want to go be in your life, and you’re doing it to the extremes. Keep on keeping on, you’re doing a great job.
Russ
May 20, 2010
Jennie,
I found your blog just recently, and have loved it. I’ve been going back in the archives and reading from the beginning.
A couple of years ago I ran across Penny’s bio on an adult web site. It was first person, so I assume you wrote it. Not only was it well-written, it was a very frank and honest take–not like any other star’s bio. So it’s completely unsurprising to me that your blog here is so captivating. Jennie, I think you’ve always had a voice, but it was just buried beneath everything else going on. And now you’ve uncovered it–and there’s no stopping it now!
Anyway, thank you for sharing part of your life with us and for giving us the privilege to read your writings. I will happily purchase your book when it’s released, and I’ll check back from time to time hoping to find new stuff here. Selfishly, I hope you start writing this blog again, but I understand you don’t owe me or anyone else anything–and I hope you understand that, too. The way I look at it, we were lucky to get this at all.
Thanks again, Jennie. I wish for nothing but the best for you.
arix
May 21, 2010
I saw you on the VH1 shows and have read your blog since day one. You are a really cool girl with an amazingly sweet spirit. Wishing you the best – hang on and be strong!
joe
May 22, 2010
Europe huh? Maybe she can make Blazed and Confused #4…
Carl Menger
May 22, 2010
Well, I haven’t followed you all the time, but I did check in now and again. It made me feel good to see you making progress, in spite of the difficulties. I understand your need to focus your efforts elsewhere and take your life out of the fish bowl. Know that I wish you well, that I’m proud of you, and believe in you. As we used to say in the Navy “fair winds and following seas”.
mr mac
May 24, 2010
i graduated from campolindo last year, its pretty crazy to know that you went to campo, and that back then you were probably just like most of the girls in my class. i hope you remember the spanish teacher who is in fact still there, mrs. danelli.
peace out
Tom
May 24, 2010
I´ve travelled several times in my life to everywhere from Mexico to Hong Kong, and each and every time I´ve come back with eyes wide open and a new outlook on life.
For me, even a trip to the country can be life changing.
Hope you find your place in the world.
Joanne
May 24, 2010
Jennie, my friend and I watched you in SH. You are a very inspiring person. Someone we would be good friends with if you lived in our city. We wanted to know what has been going on with you since you left SH. It was great to find this blog and see you are doing well. Good luck to you. All the best for your future.
Jennie
May 25, 2010
If you get the money together and decides to go to Europe you´re always welcome to come visit Sweden! /Jennie
John Bakerian
May 25, 2010
I hope you are doing great Jennifer, what you are doing is tough, relentless and hopefully rewarding. Watching you on sober house I just wanted to hold you and let you know that it will and does get better. I only hope the best for you and if you need anything please e-mail me…Take care always, John Bakerian
Charles M
May 25, 2010
well good for you. If i knew how to get incontact i would float you some fundings to “get away”, i would drink somd coffee with you but, i can’t stand the stuff. Dr.Pepper works for me. take care, Nothing but love for you.
your east coast nut
Grimm
Matt Robinson
May 27, 2010
Hey mana. I tried to reach you in LA at Pasadena Christmas Day last year. Sorry if it got weird.
scott linton
May 28, 2010
HI jennie I am very,very proud of what you are doing with your life now, just from watching you on tv you seem to be a very stong women inside and I know you will succed in what ever you do
thank-you
scott linton
Andre
May 29, 2010
Take care of yourself, look forward to reading any future articles you publish 🙂
greengirl
May 29, 2010
Jennie,
I haven’t stopped by since commenting in the Spring and imagine my surprise. I went back and nary a clue. Well, maybe the month and a half at Mr. Man’s. Where did I presume you were going after that? Apparently, out into the wild blue yonder. I hope its a great adventure and I hope when you’ve had all the space and time you need, that you’ll come back and fill us in. Or I guess we’ll just have to by the book!
Much love and grace to you.
Candace
May 30, 2010
reading the archives of this blog was so helpful to me while getting sober (I have 24 days today). i’d just like to say thank you for your honesty and for sharing your writing. I’m looking forward to reading the book when it’s done!
Joe Kilmartin
May 30, 2010
Much much love to you Jennie – please know that we’ll be happy to read whatever you write whenever you write it.
James Cottrell
June 1, 2010
A Little Good Clean Stimulus. Please Don’t Think I’m Crazy. Enjoy.
Penny Is So Fly. This is not a comment it’s just something I’ve noticed and would like to share. I would appreciate some opinions or feedback on this.
Physical Appearance Similarity Ratio
Jennifer Ketcham has a similar appearance and physical characteristics of the following celebrity figures:
1. Jennifer Ketcham 100%
2. Mia Sara – 85%
3. Bettie Page – 82%
4. Marisa Tomei – 79%
5. Alejandra Guzmán – 75%
6. Phoebe Cates – 56%
7. Marion Cotillard 42%
8. Mackenzie Phillips – 40%
9. Sigourney Weaver- 38%
10. Egle Tvirbutaite 36%
11. Evangeline Lily 35%
12. Christina Ricci – 34%
13. Darla (the older) “The Little Rascals” – 33%
14. Drielle Valeretto 31%
15. Margot Kidder 30%
16. Rachel Ray 22%
17. Dominique Moceanu – 20%
18. Holly Marie Combs 19%
19. Mary Ann – Gilligan’s Island – 12%
20. Ally Sheedy – 11%
21. Querelle Jansen 10%
22. Nicole Kidman – 9%
23. Kate Moss – 7%
24. Molly Parker 5%
25. Pippi Longstocking – 3%
26. Raggedy Ann – 2%
27. Louise – The Jefferson – 0.0% (Point of Reference)
When are you going to start blogging again?
English Adam
June 1, 2010
you are very articulate, I find that your words are easy to read, addictive, and rather individual. i don’t do a lot of reading but when I do I prefer to engage in books written by interesting individuals. I will be buying your book. im jealous of the options you have before you, id go to Europe…. well, I am in Europe but not quite… England doesn’t count. Barcelona is amazing for the next few months and if you’ve not been yet… go!! you cant not fall in love with it!!
Peace…
Adam
Jim
June 1, 2010
Hi Jennie, This is my first time writing a comment on you site, I just wanted to say how glad i am with all the progress you made over the past year. I wish you well on the path to self discovery.
natasha maguire
June 2, 2010
hi jennie
i recently found out about your story and felt a definit connection in the one with your dad…it actually brought me the courage to speak to mine…when you wrote that he always loved you and you thought he didn’t anymore…
…its been two weeks, its still awkward at times but i hope and pray that our relationship will improve…
i just wanted to say thank you…i understand im a bit late in realising your amazing writing because your taking a break but i suppose its better late than never :)…
you inspired me so much that i had to make a blog and write about you, if you ever have time i would be grateful if you could read it…thank you again and all the best in whatever you do and for the future
love tasha 🙂 x
http://findingtasha.tumblr.com/ (my blog post)
patrick
June 5, 2010
i dont want to say what i really think. to be totally honest. my best friend just offed himself. well he saved me.. well i beleive. maybe i could save you. not the same way he did. GOD NO!
sometimes i wonder if it comes down to survival.. i hear that alot. is there a limit to evolution. who’s to say? it depends on whos library you’re reading. im writing this because i dont have a creative bone in my body, that is until right now.
the love of my life forgot my birthday a couple of days ago.. well i was the only one to care enough to remember hers.. whatever. you put that quote “love’s a serious mental disorder” by plato. could be. you also mentioned trust. what is that? is that the ability to let yourself be taken advantage of by people because it gets you to your goal, divided by the ratio of negative existence in that period of time(discomfort?)? i mean just last night i was hooking up this guys electricity so he could get it free. i hit a couple of arcs and shot sparks all into my face. this guy looks a couple of year older than me and he pokes violence in my face. in actuality he’s 56. i learned that last night. he said he was in prison for 27 years for murdering his wife. thats why he looks so young. im 23. my birthday was 2 days ago. im not in fear. i dont understand that. just cautious about having to be bored in a jail cell for an indefinate amount of time while guards ignore you so they don’t have to think about the fact they are encaging one of their own in hopes of civilizing them. kinda like the missionaries from spain.. sounds like mind control to me. forced order. do you believe there is something better? i do.
i know what jails like because of an arguement with my asshole stepdad(terroristic threat?), littering ticket, and a fishing ticket.. who knew you had to have a license to fish? that was the only thing i caught that day. oh yeah and a couple of no insurance, registration, and inspection tickets. its like im trying to get to a job to get financially stable but they just wont let me have it my way!
you know every job i get it happens that way. i had this great job at a gas station. have you ever worked at a gas station? (you would love it!) and when i was working as a telemarketer.. oh that sucks! well the pattern goes i get a job for a couple of months then get pulled over trying to go home. lose the job to sit out the ticket. the last ticket i had was driving with no glasses. its rediculous i swear! i wish i was a part of the legislative branch! i would set up real laws like ‘getting a beating for starving a family’ or ‘no desert if you dont take a shower.’
sometimes i feel like a total slave! i find myself doing pointless things to get the acceptance of others. people i dont even care about. whats my agenda.. i dont know.. support, shelter, protection.
i cant get a job. i know i’ll mess it up. i once worked as a telemarketer.. lost motivation.. in fact im pretty sure i lose motivation in everything i do. i think that stems from the over whelming belief that i can do anything. you know somethin.. when you’re, free you can. last week i watched that movie iron man for the first time. that movie is cool! right afterwards i went outside and built a foundry. need any alluminium horseshoe made?
anyways back to trust. i don’t know if i could trust you in real life. i would try! you do look sweet. i hope your new image works for your retirement. you’re a lot more attractive! thats for sure. i don’t know if you are a lot like me and have very little emotion less than 30% of your time. is that autism? you are also a liar. sucks that sex isn’t a positive experience for you anymore. i mean you don’t have to make excuses if you don’t want to do it anymore. i totally understand! i wonder how that would go though. kinda like it would go for me to tell that guy who i gave free electricity to, well quite frankly to eat shit and that i’m not gonna lay pipe for him today so he can get free water. that guy was telling me to hook up the wrong wires in his house which would have been very bad for the eyes.. and when i first met him he literal went to a porn site and caught a virus called anti virus soft.. fake antivirus software.. in less than 5 minutes. like he was compelled to do that. maybe someone can be addicted! maybe you’re not a liar now that i think about it. ~and doing starts to form a habit~ thats an Against Me! song. damn i’m a hypocrite. well none the less i don’t care much for porn. i believe it was created by the mafia or something close to that. also my dad got arrested some years ago for child porn. first off.. i’m not him. i only lived with him those last two years.. wanna know something funny? before he was sent off, the fbi agent was in my room and i was laying on the bed. she said something i don’t remember than she said with a smooth tone, off topic, and spontaneously, “this is the first time i’ve ever been in your room.” i believe she was guilty of the same thing! i felt violated after that! second off, i too am the kind of person who had successfully went on a vow of celibacy. if i were to tell that to any of the podunk redneck people around here well they would not understand. this world’s got some troubles!
do you believe in human nature? just wondering..
did i also tell you i am a professional skateboarder? yep! 😀 true story. i was in a couple of videos. you can look me up. the guy that makes them’s name is jordan hackney. hes the director. the latest one he made was called ‘life of these parasites 2tew’ another called ‘sirap’. that one should be on youtube. i had a small part in there. small achievement for whats happening around us.. not only in history, but just take a step back and take a look around. you know? i don’t really like being in front of the camera. its awkward. no telling who’s watching.
do you like music. who cares? just kidding! 😀 hahaha, seriously what do ya like?
hey have you heard of the silva method? you would love that! it helped me out a great deal. i showed it to my friend who is a semi-pro football player and it helped him out greatly! it really works!
heres a link if you want it for free.. the stuff is really expensive and i know it will help you along your way. http://torrents.thepiratebay.org/4984916/The_Silva_Method_-_Success_and_Self-Confidence_2006.4984916.TPB.torrent you’ll have to get a torrent program if you dont already have one. you could use limewire or utorrent. its some mp3s. seriously check that junk out! 😀
on another note i want to go check out that big oil spill. i could build a boat and help out or something. it would be fascinating to see the ocean!
i kinda skipped around writing this but as of right now i have nothing better to do! this is kinda like a message in a bottle because i don’t know if this is your site or a bunch of fanboys makin this site. who knows. that wouldn’t be weird at all! hahahahahaha!!
i think its people like you and me and also bill murray that realize what really matters in this world. if you ever need any support or anything you can alway email me. for sure! or if you have any suggestions for me to be a better person from your perspective: ptrakk@gmail.com.
if you ever need your computer or any thing like that fixed i can fix them too! i started a business. Byte Me! computer repair. right now i deal with a lot of dopeheads but i’m working out of that. i got them cut down. i did happen to get his camera with some baby picture that i’m 80% sure was stolen and i’d like to return it to the rightful owners.. don’t know how to find them but if i see them i will!
i just got these three free chips from st microelectronics and i want to build a robotic bird! that would be awesome. one that can fly like a sparrow!
oh i forgot about the wine i was making in the back of the truck!! i just remembered it. i think thats what made this girl fall in love with me in the first place. heh heh heh just kidding! anyways hope this wasn’t too choppy and likewise thank you for letting me to provide my feelings on your site!
firstverb
June 5, 2010
Miss Jennifer,
I just wanted to send this out into the ether of the web. Happy 14 months and 2 month anniversaries. Wherever your at whatever your doing I hope you are well and happy.
Have a glorious day.
Greybeard
June 7, 2010
Damn, I miss you. Your blog was one of the brightest spots on the Internet. Hope everything is going great for you.
josue
June 8, 2010
you know what i’m already missing the butterfly bandit. you??
Wayne
June 10, 2010
Oh God what a bunch of crap from a social dropout. Come on get back to the cast calls and the couch…. I tried ALL that crap and you know what? Tigers and zebras don’t change their stripes and color! You are what you ventured into do, you loved the drugs you loved the fantastic and almost all the time outrageous porn shoots with lots of off camera sex,… who are you kidding ? Write what you will , but your heart loves what you did and you enjoyed it set yourself free and continue with caution be who were and are and if you like all that go for it, otherwise don’t be intimidated by others saying “Oh you have to stop, or you have to be this way. I love a outspoken girl who defines who she is and sets fore her boundaries and says …. I need to go get laid tonight, I worked hard all week.
Joe
June 10, 2010
Is she doing porn again? What would Dr. Drew say???
Craig
June 12, 2010
That has to be one of the best quotes I’ve read yet. Thanks. It makes me look back and think maybe this or that is a path in life I should have traveled down or something I could have put more of myself into at the time. It also make me want to rewind…maybe this or that that I’m thinking of may have changed my path in life and I would not be in the place I am now in life. Beautiful, timeless advice. I’m not sure how you got in my head but I swear the first time I laid eyes on you I knew I’d never be able to stop following your sweet self. Now you’ve lead me here and let me into your mind and I’m still shocked but proud of you for taking this path in life. Good luck with your ongoing recovery and thanks again for being such a beautiful person inside and out that I cant stop admiring. If your stills are ever missing from the internet, I’m gonna have to go into rehab myself.
Anna
June 12, 2010
Hey Jennie,
I have just spent the entire day (yep, from 10 am to 8 pm – it’s now evening here in Sweden) reading your entire blog. Yea, the whole thing from beginning to end, in one go!
I saw you first on CR, and the name PF rung a bell, but I was floored by the intensity at which you explored every moment, every up and down, every learning curve that took you to the point where you decided to become Jennie again. You have become one of my all-time idols – not because you created civilisations or stopped wars, but simply because you were able to step back, reevaluate your life, and find a new way of life that made you whole. I admire you so much.
I googled you, found the blog, and was hooked. Having read everything from the initial meltdowns to the recent analyses on life and everything in it, just shows what an incredible road your have journeyed on. I hope I one day am able to say the same about myself! 🙂
I, together with all the others, understand that the memoirs are prio number 1 (and when it comes out, I WILL buy it!) but please do update us from time to time, let us know what you’re up to.. And that includes Mr. Man!
If you’re ever in the southern Sweden area or Brisbane (where I will be now for half a year) let me know – I’ll be more than happy to show you to a nice little café where you can blissfully write the hours away.
Stay well, and stay strong. Know that you have inspired hundreds of thousands. You are a constant reminder that it is possible to get yourself out of the darkest shithole and still make a life for yourself worth loving!
All my love and respect,
/Anna
Jay
June 12, 2010
Missing you, Jennie. I hope all is well.
Rob L
June 12, 2010
HI Jennie. so i’ve been reading your stories and everything on this blog and i gotta say, its inspirational stuff. My dads been in AA scince i was 16 and its been nothing but positive for him and my family. We’ve never met but i can tell you’re one tough chick and i really admire what you’re doing. Im a fan of your work onscreen and your art is fan-friggin-tastic. Especially the one with the road, the green and blue looks really good :-] I guess im just trying to say good luck and thanks for sharing. Oh, and if your traveling, Detroit is really nice this time of year, haha best wishes and love- Rob
narcissist's victim
June 13, 2010
awwwww Jennie I miss you already
Cade
June 14, 2010
Hey girlie…great job! Keep up the great work and it will reward you tremendously. You would make make anyone proud og your acheivements. May some day someone hold you in there arms and whisper in your ear, ” Thats my baby-girl and Im proud of you” Peace Cade
John Ryan
June 17, 2010
You are a despicable human being!
bradley_stoke
June 17, 2010
What I like about “Penny Flame” is almost certainly true of Jennie as well.
It’s an engaging and mildly self-deprecating sense of humour, an honest awareness of her situation, and a very real attempt (in a complex world) to describe things as they are.
I’ve never been a porn star and my experience of drugs is several yards short of the extent to which “Penny Flame” (and the younger Jennie before her) has enjoyed. My regrets might be that a bit more excess mightn’t have been such a bad thing, but I don’t know. And what’s true of one person won’t be the same for someone else.
I wish you the best of luck in your endeavour to get ahead and leave the porn industry in your own time. And I especially salute the personal honesty and resolve that you express in carrying out this bold decision.
Prince Bishop of Durham
June 20, 2010
Googling you on the net. I came across your blog
like many other people. Your stories gives thousands of people inspiration to get over their addiction whatever it is. I respect you for that and hope you achieve your inner peace you are looking for. You are far more talented thn people credit you for. The honesty in your blog lets me believe you will succeed. Good Luck.
Gergus
June 24, 2010
Wow,I didn’t know you went to a rehab and I just read that on a website than saw you got a blog about that. I’m just started to read your blog and it’s fascinating to see a person changing like this. I’m happy for you and I will change a bit after I read all of this
tupac king
June 20, 2010
I hope that Jenny is not coming back to porn because it has become GREAT SHIT of stupid scenes (slap, spit …) a lot of weird things, we all know ex-Wicked Julia Ann as a big star and famous, she today is the basket of porn.
jenny a smart girl and she knows that her return to porn and a big mistake.
Greg
June 22, 2010
Well, I didn’t read all of your blogs(probably not even most), I read some. Its like 1 in the morn here, I’ll get to them later in the morning…maybe…ahah
Jennie, I was a fan of you in your former job. But I am such a bigger fan of you now, the REAL you. I’m 18, so I kind of understand the “finding yourself” thing…a bit. Yep, going off to college in about two months, seperating from my friends who are going into the force, which leaves me to start a new beginning. Ah, the excitement!
I’m a writer too. I used to write a lot, but I haven’t lately. I don’t know why I refer to myself as one. I don’t blog, never tried it. I write short stories and stuff, spend some time in related forums to express some ideas. I enjoy it, its who I am.
Thats neither here nor there though. I just wanted to say that I admire you and your newfound strength. 🙂
Also…your last name KINDA sounds like that guy from Pokemon….I’m just saying. haha
Laterz
Victor
June 23, 2010
Good luck Jennie. It’s been fun, it’s been sad, it’s been eye-opening, it’s been heartbreaking, but most of all it’s been great to have met you. Hendix’s “Castles Made Of Sand” (fall in the sea; eventually) may not have been HDT’s cup of tea, but I think he and Jimi would have hit it off.
Thanks for sharing so much of yourself and if you’re ever around let’s have a cup of good Kona….
MizWright
June 23, 2010
Jennie:
I am so proud of you for all that you have been through in the past 14 months. Go forth and live and love, for you are loved and never alone.
josue
June 23, 2010
so, when can i get your book? is already written?. probably now you’re going back to school rigth! so how are you doing? i know you doing well. i miss you. 🙂
Chris
June 24, 2010
Dear Jennie,
Saw you for the first time on Celebrity Rehab w/Dr. Drew and have to say I was impressed by your personality. You seemed to be fun loving and intelligent as hell.
I wish you the best in your travels and although you are beautiful their is so much more to a person and you appear to display some of the kinder traits.
Trust like respect has to be earned. Don’t pass it out to easily or hold it to close that it never gets out. It would appear you have a ton of good karma to share with the world. Continue writing and sharing in that manner. Peace.
Kay
June 25, 2010
I miss your blog!
Angela Chiklakis
June 26, 2010
Who makes the birthday cake lotion you mention?
firstverb
July 6, 2010
Miss Jennifer,
Happy 15 month and 3 month anniversaries.
Another month has gone. I hope all is wonderful. Saw your pixs on the 4th, You and Mr.Man look so good together.
Thank you for being.
Have a glorious day.
TS
July 8, 2010
I just realized, it’s only been 2 months since your last post.
Jesus Christ, really? It seems like forever…
Kevin Cee
July 9, 2010
Dear Jennie,
Forget that handful of negative, ridiculous comments above mine. I think you’re an incredible strong, beautiful, supremely intelligent young woman. You’ve been through so much, but you’re okay and you’re still standing. Reading this blog of yours over the past few months has touched me and moved me to tears, and I just want to thank you. You inspire me, and I wish the best of luck on your journeys beyond this blog, and in life.
Stay strong, you can do anything.
Love,
Kevin.
Kyle
July 9, 2010
Hi Jennie. I just stumbled onto your blog after doing a search on you. A buddy told me the girl I have been pining for looks like you, and he was right. Your writing and art, very good stuff! I look forward to your return to the blogging. Remember “the day is committed to error and floundering, achievements are of long range”, sorry to paraphrase Johann Wolfgang Van Goethe, but that you used Thoreau opened the door.
Cindy
October 21, 2010
Hi
I got your post unexpectedly when i was making research for online solutions to open exercise page for
my readers who are lookings for online lfrench courses…thanks for that post, i bookmarked and will be back to check it out some more later
Regards