Browsing All posts tagged under »afraid«

Missing and Action:

November 27, 2012


Yes. I know. It has been quite some time since the last post. I have not fallen off the face of the earth, which I’ve heard is a physical impossibility, unless of course, I am circling in earth’s orbit, which means, of course, that I have — in fact — catapulted myself off of the […]

Dog Shit in the Kitchen

October 16, 2012


Sometimes I am selfish and go to sleep without letting Saucy out for a final pee or poo. Last night’s selfishness manifest itself into a giant dog shit in the kitchen, which inevitably leads back to me, to my failure to let her out and my selfishness in choosing to go to bed over choosing […]

An Adventure in Healing

April 12, 2012


I have taken on the most incredible adventure. No, not recovery of the kind may think, but of a larger recovery, a bigger plan, something so big and so large that it keeps me up at night with the potential good that may come of it. I have decided to start a non-profit organization that […]

And Now, for Some Humanity

October 28, 2011


After the last post, the post about the woman that can do everything, I quickly realized that you are all correct and it is not necessary to do everything. While I may have pretended to be wise, a sage of wordpress and knower of my own limitations, surely my humanity and my super addicty ways […]

Dealing with Disappointment

April 28, 2011


About two weeks ago, I was sitting in Dr. Reef’s office talking about life. At one point in our short, thirty minute conversation, he said, “I’m really curious as to when something will go wrong for you. Because everything seems to go right.” Oh ho ho Dr. Reef, that statement assumes I believe things can […]

Biological, Physiological, Existential: Crisis

March 21, 2011


I am currently in the middle of the last class I need to be get into UCLA, if  they are to accept me – I find out some time in April. The final class that I’m taking is a Biology class, and even though I’d already finished my life science units at San Diego State […]

The Experiment is Over

January 7, 2011


It’s over. The experiment I wrote about last time. Aside from the fact many people here reminded me I was not helping to the situation by repeatedly shutting doors that did not need to be shut, Jill and I had a good talk and brought up the likelihood that this woman has OCD or some […]

In his eyes….

December 4, 2009


I sat outside my favorite coffee spot this morning awaiting his arrival. I didn’t eat breakfast, afraid nerves may get the best of me and induce physical vomiting in addition to the emotional I anticipated, so my stomach growled a bit as I watched cars pass, wondering if one might be his. Wondering if perhaps […]

Procrastination Station

December 4, 2009


Amazing how many things come up when all I want to do is call somebody. There is grocery shopping to be done, house cleaning, a ton of dishes that need washing (even though they sit clean in my cupboards), catching up on that book I promised my brother I would read, snuggle and nap time […]