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And this is why I don’t drink anymore….

August 29, 2009

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It’s funny how there will always be some hater that tries to bring you down. Someone who questions your integrity and capacity to be honest just because. I’m actually kind of grateful, because this is a very clear reason for me to continue not drinking. I turn into an icky, yucky, sloppy drunk girl when […]

The Heat Hits Hollywood

August 27, 2009

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And my feet are dirty. My feet have been dirty for as long as I can remember. The only time when they are not dirty is during winter when I wear argyle socks and boots or kicks and they are covered completely. But every summer, the sandals come out and the filth completely takes to […]

A day of days…

August 23, 2009

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Today was a lovely day. Started off painting, finished off painting, and explored my clothed modeling potential throughout the hours in between. I drank way too much coffee this morning, felt a little shaky when painting, so called it quits and hustled off to pick up Angel and go meet Teri Montoya, a lovely photographer […]

Most Awkward Experience Ever Dot Com

August 22, 2009

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I am not one to step on toes, and tonight, its possible I accidently trampled some. Certainly not with any cruel intent, no malicious or mean spirited foot stomping, but tonight’s events lead me to believe that this may have not been the best decision ever. Sometimes, doing the right thing just isn’t the right […]

I have a pretty cool trapperkeeper

August 20, 2009

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So…..the dance class. I sat outside terrified to go in. Terrified, as I had mentioned, that I would not be able to move or groove or do any of the things I was once able to do. I sat outside on the phone with E-Deezy, who calmly told me that my trapperkeeper will do just […]

Beginning from scratch

August 18, 2009

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In a different post I mentioned the flood of memories, the things that used to be meaningful to me but over periods of time I lost the drive, the motivation, the enthusiasm that it takes to keep at something. I’d like to discuss my fears here, so that hopefully, by tomorrow, they are dispelled among […]

Back to the Grind…

August 17, 2009

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Home again, home again, jiggity jig. After a long day of layovers and flight changes, of letting go of the city in eternal motion and sleepless abandon, I am grateful to be back with Ms. Saucerton Dogsworth and Kittypie, back to lala land where helicopters swoop around my home ever mindful of the streets happenings, […]

When the night grows lonely

August 15, 2009

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After an amazing trip, one that presented itself as a challenge and positive lesson, my last night has arrived and I decided it best to take to the streets alone, in an attempt to process the emotions that came up over the course of the past couple days, and to see if I can go […]

Everything you’ve ever heard, its all true

August 14, 2009

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City light. Constant motion and sound bombarding my ears, eyes and heart. The need to be on the move is overwhelming, signs declaring that we may not stand remind me that every person in this big apple must have a place to go… A destination complete with times and expectations, with duties and responsibilities. New […]

Cone of shame

August 7, 2009

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Hollywood is buzzing with life. Women in short sparkly dresses and high heels totter along clumsily behind men dressed for the warm LA nightlife. My own apartment building has a heartbeat running through it, a drum and base line that pumps up through my hardwood floor, and the somewhere in the surrounding complex, a party […]

Suiting up, showing up and growing up

August 6, 2009

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Yesterday was a day filled with sleepy naps on my buddy Brando’s hammock, poolside dixie cups filled with ice cold water, and a short visit with a friend who is more than artistically inclined. I met with this friend at his current project’s location off Melrose, where he was painting a storefront with some super […]

Irrational Fears and Settled Debts

August 3, 2009

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Not very long ago, one of my strongest character flaws was apathy. At the time, I had prided myself on it being a strong point. Some times ya just gotta let go man….as I puffed out a huge hit from a blunt and tossed back my J&C. I didn’t mind letting the little things go, […]

Just Dance

August 2, 2009

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I have so many new things that I wish I could write about, but feel as if to say any of it out loud would somehow jinx it. Make it not real. Or make it all too real. So I will wait. But there are things going on in my life right now that are […]